As the title is already obvious about it, I was supposed to post an impulsive entry last night. Yes, God was able to talk to me first and heal my emotional wounds before I could rant here online. Hindi Niya ako pinaabot ng net kagabi.
As you, my dear reader, may have noticed, this post is far different from my previous posts. This one’s more conversational … more of like my “Mother’s Day Impasse” thing.
Dapat lip-ot lang ni siya. However, my mind keeps on rambling things and jamming them upon that part of the brain that makes you think before you do anything … more specifically, express ideas and emotions.
I honestly don’t know how I felt last night, or why I felt that way. Bigla na lang ako napa-rant sa laptop ko (which is now healed without much hassle, by the way, much gratitude to w4RL0CK and Dado). Bigla na lang ako na bad trip, and everything I was doing was affected. Ang hirap naman maging tao. A melancholic, to be more particular.
My sensitivity gradually kills me. And I don’t know why it does, why I felt that way. Help me understand all these, Lord. Help me understand my oh-so-pathetic self.
Again, my emotions were all raging up … nagpapatong-patong, nagkakagulo-gulo. And I really don’t like it. In fact, I despise it.
I praise God for calming me down. And I praise God for dealing with me a lot of things. I’m sorry guys, especially for those who are concerned and worried, if I cannot really specify anything. It was between me, my laptop, and my God.
I praise God for making me mature more and more each time. I just pray for those of my friends who are not yet spiritually mature enough, that the Lord may talk to them, and help them realize which things are worth their time – for example, stalking a non Christian over the net over having your quiet time? That’s one major problem we have there. Yup, a biggie. Note: not based on real-life situations (meaning no particular person or instance in mind).
This is why fellowships are important, so we may continue to pray for each other’s struggles, and be there for one another for comfort, for strength, for advice … of course, knowing first and foremost that our true source for all these is our gracious Father.
Owwwkaaaay … masyado na atang spontaneous ang entry na ‘to, that I don’t seem to filter what I write. Every time I think of something I immediately type them down. Okay. That was really random.
Anyway, I just posted so I can say I have updated my blog. I’m sorry, for my readers, kung hindi ko pa na-continue ‘yung story ko, which still has two of its parts to be written.
I thank you, also. Yes, you, my dear reader, for making an effort to know me more and in appreciating my thoughts and ideas. At least you get to read it … which can make me feel like you care or something. Haha. Again, apologies for my presently oh-so-pathetic self. :)
I also plan to post creative outbursts sometime. SOMETIME. And if I may want to. Bleh. :p This is it for now.
Indeed, all kinds of emotions pass – anger, infatuation, sorrow, etc. One thing I know is for sure – that the joy of having a God like Him who has saved us from what our sins can do, and who is forever gracious, will remain forever.
It is my prayer that whatever our emotions may be, this joy will dominate over the insignificant and passing ones.
Thank you for the reminder, Lord.
‘Til next time.
You know you love me.
Wait. Wrong line.
You know He loves you.
XOXO.
Southern Girl.
(That was lousy.)
